endless love

i've come across a new description of love. not so much a description but a reality. from young to barely an adult, approval has been the main drive. almost striving for perfection. dissapointment is a common outcome but once that goal is met -- victory never tastes so sweet. when seeking the approval of another, it's natural to want approval from your very closest -- parents, siblings. when that approval is not granted, one is to think that it is on their behalf that love is provided. but it is the opposite. love is not shown by those with dissaproving eyes but by the one seeking approval. it is then that love steps in, putting all things aside, realizing that is's one decision to be made alone. to put down all former thoughts of approval needed into one final decision: love. it is then that all that is left is love...sweet love. love that does not judge but forgives. love that understands. love that is not forced but developed. love that stands strong when the storms pass by. love is a way of life. love is a reason to keep living. love is everything you've ever dreamed of.

hello world...
                                              long time no talk. i felt the urge to write on my xanga..for no apparent reason. oh yes...i LOVE TYLER MARK ANDERSON! ...thought i'd throw that out there.

             life is good. the summer was pretty alright. i had a blast traveling with my PR group...NEW COVANENT! it's been so much fun! but i didn't get to see natalie or tyler much @ all. that was the only draw back..and it went by EXTREMELY fast!!

i'm glad that summer's over though. i get to see my best friends and tyler! everything's crazy though..i'm nannying for my 5 month old cousin every monday-friday and his 3 year old brother on tuesdays and thursdays. the 3 year old is QUITE a handful...but levi....the 5 month old...it awesome! it's pretty stressful because i do it from 7-1230 every day...and then go straight to classes every day..and then PR on the weekends...CRAZYNESS. i really don't get time to rest..mostly because my two best friends..natalie and dena don't have class until 12 every day...so, they stay up late and sleep in late....so it stinks..and tyler works.. :( haha..so, i pretty much don't have a social life..

         anyway......life is good. i'm really starting to stress about what God wants me to do with the rest of my life. i want to be a singer...that's that. so we were talking in Christian Beliefs about doing this and i decided it was a good idea...so, i'm just gonna pray every night that once second semester rolls around i'm going to start pursing a singing career unless God places another desire in my life for something else..i don't know. it's all way confusing...so if you get the chance...pray for me?  thank ya!

GOD IS GOOD...all the time...

hello world! i'm back! it's the summer..almost 2 months into it, actually!! we've been out of school since may 5th, not gonna lie..that's REALLY nice! but i've been back on campus, LIVING here, since may 15th!! crazy, i know. i'm having a blast being in PR though. my group is the best. we have so much fun together, not gonna lie. i'm having so much fun, but i'm not sure if i can do it another year..i'm sure i can. it just depends on if i want to be away from my friends, family, and tyler that long. haha..oh dear. not sure yet. we'll just see how the rest of my PR time goes, right? 

summer is great. i love it. it feels so nice to be out of school. personally, i feel very accomplised to have 1 full year of college over with. honestly, it's sad that my first year is already gone. but exciting at the same time. next year will be completely different because i'll be living off campus with my brother. i can't wait. it'll be a lot of fun. my brother and i have always been really close, so it'll be nice to just get away. i suppose i'll miss out on a little bit of campus stuff..but i can tell you this..i won't miss out on the food!!! haha. i get to cook my own food...which very well might be a DISASTER!! :) but i'll get the hang out if eventually...thank goodness my mom's giving me ALL OF her recipies!! yay, mom!! :)

in the fall i'm going to start nannying for my new born cousin, levi, and maybe his older brother, austin-3, as well. i can't WAIT for that as well! it shall be fun. i'm not so sure about the having to be there by 7 every morning and staying until 12:15-12:30 and then heading straight to classes..oh heavens. but it'll be nice. i should get off around 3 or 4 for classes every day and have the rest of the day off...HOW NICE!!

oh yes. i think my major is going to be business..and i think i'm going to be a photographer..have my own business..take pictures..not sell cameras and all that jazz. i think it'll be fun..and then hopefully be able to work on writing my own music, playing my guitar, the piano, my violin, and singing, and be able to get a cd out eventually...maybe get discovered..that'd be sweet action.

i should probably go to sleep now. i'm rambling..i miss you guys.. :(  LOVE YA! i hope your summer is going great..hit me up and maybe we can talk or even hang out if i'm in town--wherever i PR takes me..haha...goodnight all!!

they're here. finals. wow! i can't believe this year has gone by so quickly! it's crazy. now all that's on my mind is studying so i can have a clear conscience all summer. :) you know me! haha. anyway, this year has been quite an adventure. i thank all of you for making it so much better than it ever could have been. i really enjoyed meeting everyone and learning new things about others and myself. it's been great. keep it real.

always prayin' for ya..
 kim m kramer